I am so angry, I am so at ease

I wrote a blog a few days ago and then deleted it shortly after. Replacing it with a post entitles 'Deleting'. The blog was mainly about the amount of Cat Power I listened to in the autumn just gone.

Probably the most intensive and exclusive listening period of my life. The main point of the post was that although some of her music exudes a somewhat negative and depressing outlook, for me it was the perfect thing. Not to get too sentimental because that is why I deleted the post in the beginning but listening to her songs around that time was sort of like having someone to sympathize with me when things weren't go that well.



Although capable of writing more upbeat positive songs there was one song that when I was in a certain mood, it seemed like the most heartbreaking piece of music ever written. It's called "Ice Water" I think it'd be pointless to post the youtube video. Its the kind of song that finds you, instead of you finding it, but obviously look it up if your interested.

Deleting this post and trying to get my friend Laurie to blog made me think. Why delete posts? Most things I delete because I read them back a second, minute or hour later and decide no one in the world would want to read this or be remotely interested. This is also the reason that has held Laurie back from blogging. This is also the same reason I was skeptical as well as happy when "P" asked me if I'd like to contribute to WS.

Do I have anything worth saying? Is what I have to say less valid than other bloggers? I think its a fine line sometimes deciding what should be kept to yourself and let out in a personal way and what should be broadcast (so to speak). Maybe even its a case of inflated importance. Whatever you write does anyone really care?

Blame it all on those Libra scales.

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