nightmares

Many years ago I believed I had great friends in New York.

At once I was delusional to believe I even had friends in LA. 

And then one day I thought it would be weird or a nightmare if they all knew each other somehow.

Back in the day, before myspace and all that junk, i got it a bit, oh yeah you know blah and blah.. especially since i was a real coaster (i.e. west coast to east coast).

but It was seldom compared to what happened some years later...

because everyone I knew associated with LA started to know everyone from new york..

and it got really annoying cause people would talk shit..

and half the time i was anxious that people would be talking about me.. 

and I distanced myself from that entire subculture / crowd completely...

It's also the reason why I refuse to set foot in LA or in places where I can run into people..

but I still have my muslim headscarf, so I'll be alright...

But it's so annoying, you mention to one person that you might be in LA for something, and then all those people know youre coming, so they call you and you don't want to see them...

but yesterday i had a nightmare that I hope will never come true. 

because If it did, I would't have a solace anymore.

Oh, if I'm with any one of my london mates and someone I know sees me in europe (which i hope never happens, it was part of my nightmare)

My name is SoonJin Kim or ChinChin Lao, I don;t speak english very well, and I'm an exchange student from Asia somewhere.